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Wednesday, June 21, 2006

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Fallen
By Evanescence
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Well here it is the first chapter of a very interesting book.  Get ready because I'm not intirely sure where we are going.


The Beginning

 

I looked at that window for last time.  I was a fool then, I can’t say that I’m brilliant now, but I have a better grasp on things now.  The allusion that was my life was changed in an instant, and I’m not sure how to deal with it.  I will always remember that cold day in December.  It’s strange now to look back and realize that only a year has actually passed since then.  It was dark if I recall correctly, right after dinner, it was actually that night on the second.  My life had been changed a good deal more drastically than I had ever anticipated, and well I guess that to tell you any more I would have to start at the beginning of my tale.

            Well, like I said it was the evening of December on the second, and I had gone upstairs in my grandparent’s cabin in Colorado.  My grandparents, you see, were very mountainous people.  For one reason or another they loved the cold air.  I, on the other hand, despised it in the least, the thin air was a little dizzying at times.  I trudged up the stairs in my usual way.  I swung the door open and peered into the dark room that lay before me.  The room seemed breezier than I had anticipated, and a shiver ran up my spine.  I felt around and flipped on the light switch.  The light came on instantly and revealed a cluttered mess.  I promised I would clean up the room for my grandparents, and when better than late at night.  I walked over to the window and found it open.  I looked at it curiously; I hadn’t touched it at all during my stay.  Quickly, and shuttering at the fact that I might sleep in the cold that night, I closed and latched the window.  It was enough that I had to deal with them cooling the downstairs I didn’t need them cooling my room.  I simply ignored the fact that they would cool the house when it was cold enough.  I began to grab the dirty clothes off the ground and tossed them into the hamper next to the closed door.

            Turning around to make the bed, or at least clean it up so that I’d have something to warm myself up with, there came a shock when my bedroom door screeched open and my grandma’s sweet voice wishing me a good night.  Flinging my body around, I repeated the phrase in a cold sweat.  My grandma closed the door as I turned around and placed the comforter on the bed.  I felt a quick tingle grow up from my feet and settle at my neck.  It was alarming, but I didn’t think too much of it, the room was still rather breezy. 

My eyes glazed over at the clock.  I made an upset groan, just nearly eight o’clock, what was I to do.  I dropped my body onto the bed and reached for my bag.  The zipper came undone with a little effort; I reached inside and grabbed a book.  I began to read it, it wasn’t that interesting I remember.  My eyes began to close and slowly I fell asleep my head using the book as a pillow.

I had a strange dream.  For some reason I was walking down a road with nothing on either side of me for miles.  My legs began to ache and I was fazing from the heat.  My eyes looked up, and before me was a house.  The house was surrounded by a small forest, and overhead was a thick black cloud that was letting out buckets of rain.  As I came closer to the house I began to realize that it was a very extravagant house, despite the dark cloud above it, it shined radiantly as if repelling the rain drops.  I walked up to the porch; it was long and stretched all round the house.  Taking each step slowly I peered at the windows at either side of the door, the inside looked completely dark.  I stepped closer to the door and realized that there was a plaque above it.  The plaque read, “Lose Hope All Who Enter Here.” and it had some scrawling that I could not make out underneath it.  I came to the door and felt my hand gravitate toward the doors handle, I tried to pull myself away but the pull became even stronger.  Finally, my hand made a tight grip around the doors handle, and I heard a voice exclaim to me, “Open it, the path is dark but holds many treasures.  The day is night but there is order in the chaos.  Turn the handle and know true knowledge, turn the handle and have unnatural wisdom.  I’m waiting for you.”

I was pulled out of the dream suddenly and onto a shoulder.  My eyes slowly came into focused and I watched as whatever had me darted down the stairs and through the kitchen to the living room.  It threw me on the couch and threw a helmet at me telling me to put it on.  I examined the helmet and then took a slow look at whoever it was.  He had on a black leather jacket and black jeans.  I tried to get a look at his face, but it seemed as if there was no face to look at.  He grabbed the helmet exclaiming that he didn’t have time for this, and shoved it on my head.  It invariably knocked me out.

During that time I had another dream.  I was in a completely white room, I looked around but saw no walls no ceiling, not even a floor.  It was as if I had been entered into some type of limbo.  I, by no power of my own, began to walk.  A voice shouted out to me, “Stop where you are!  Take off your shoes for you are on holy ground.”

A little confused I reached down and yanked off my shoes.  “What is going on and who is that guy who grabbed me?” I quickly asked.

A response had come just as quickly as I had asked the question.  “You are caught in a war between true good and true evil, more will be explained later.  As for the man who grabbed you, he is named Diago, he is good and that is all you need to know.”

The light began to fade and I felt my mind slip.  “Wait.” I yelled.  It was too late I began to hear some type of rumble, and slowly I began to smell pine trees.  The wind was blowing all around me and my vision came into focus, something strange was happening.  I looked around and everything was taking a new form.


Sunday, June 04, 2006

My Dove

My heart breaks to see the moonlight
the stars never seem enough
this valley that i walk,
curves to somewhere dark-
if i choose to go some place
happy the only result can be
the sad truth that I have realized

my life. seems Incomplete with-
out my second half
the warm touch of
her lips
the soft glow of
her smile
the beauty of
her eyes

My heart is yet
to dark for such a dove
the hatred that it can hold
would strangle her to quickly
I Fear that path

The valley always seems so
deep, the ocean always so
narrow, the desert always so
thick, my life without Him
it seems so little
so vacant
so bland

He will bring me to her
where the Dark and the Light collide
He knows my love for her even now
such a crow in the sight of many is
such a unclean spirit
such a misread soul.

My heart aches for her touch
her fragrant voice...
If ever I were to meet my dove
my heart itself would be complete
because of His divine grace.


Thursday, June 01, 2006

I am The Traveler
You know Me
You've seen me
I am not loved
not hated
I am merely
a man
The Traveler--
My roots have long dissipated
My heart since broken
My spirit torn and worn
My mind lost--
lost in its once youthful host

I am The Traveler
scorned by few
liked by many.
you wish to know my name?
you wish to know why, I am?
--truly--I tell you
this you can not know
for in the instant
for in the moment
for in the very second
I tell you what it is--
it will have been long
Forgotten.

Sir
or Madam,
the kindness that I see
(and I do see much)
has been lost on me
your pick of a vessel is taint.
I am The Traveler
no purpose serves me
save one
no person loves me
except for familly.

I,
am The Traveler
I do have impact
I do have place
but where--where am I to be
where am I to see
how to receive the glee
that I find flows so gently,
...so gently,
through those who surround me

my fire burns out
but my soul stays lit
my things wear
but my heart keeps its passion
my books return to dust
but my brain desires to know more

I am The Traveler
I have no home Here
I have no ties Here.
All are acquaintances
all the friends there were have past
all my love has been denied
And So.

I am The Traveler.
Let me be.


my Love

To my Love

You are more beautiful
than the delicate rose.
it tries to match your beauty
but can only
touch your shadow.
my heart aches to know you
my soul longs to be with you

As the the sun kisses
the horizon
the glowing lanterns appear
but
The Stars in all their glory
Can not match the light--
The Light which
You create in my heart!

The Ocean in all its vastness
The Land in all its magnificence.
these can not keep me from you-
i would climb the tallest mountain
and swim the longest sea
just to be with you
my
Love


Love

Love
what could I do
what could I say
that would
bring you to me?



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